My IVF Journey and my Miracle Baby – By Amanda
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At MyBump2Baby we feel it is important to share real-life stories to raise awareness and support other people going through similar experiences. Today Amanda, a blogger from the Infertility Bubble shares an honest blog on her own personal story of her IVF Journey and Miracle Baby
My IVF Journey and Miracle Baby
We discovered that we were unable to conceive naturally, so we decided to embark on the IVF route. I had 9 rounds of IVF, one of which put my in hospital, with a mild case of hyper stimulation. It was then I decided to do a bit of research on the internet, into Implantation failure. In doing so I found a clinic in London that appeared to specialise in this area, immune therapy (as my immune system was too high), so I had a telephone consultation. The consultant was so positive that he could help, we decided we had to go for it. My husband and I were fast approaching 40, this was going to be our last go, so we had to throw everything at it.
The 10th Round of IVF
The 10th round started. It comprised of lots of medication, infusions, and trips back and fore to London. We worked with this clinic in London alongside our clinic in Wales. We also had our embryos tested to determine the quality of them. There were 4, and during this process 1 died, 2 were abnormal and they could not get a reading on the 4th. We decided to put it back because of all the immune therapy I had had. It was a tense time waiting to do the pregnancy test. I started bleeding 1/2 days before I was due to do the test. A trip to the clinic to have yet more injections. However it was positive. 9 months later and many many injections and tablets, my daughter was born.
Another Positive Pregnancy Test
A couple years later we decided to use our last frozen embryo, using only some of the drugs that we had used on my daughters round, in the hope of giving her a sibling. A positive pregnancy test! Wow we couldn’t be this lucky, could we?
You’ve guessed it, no we couldn’t. I lost my baby just short of 12 weeks. A week later, not only was I grieving, but I suffered a nearly fatal haemorrhage. Blue lighted to resus in one hospital, a few transfusions, to get me stable enough to be blue lighted to another hospital.
My Mental Health
A few months later it was evident that I was not dealing with all this very well, and started suffering panic attacks, along with hyper vigilance. I arrange to speak to a grief midwife, who was my saviour. She advised that I needed PTSD therapy, which helped hugely. Eventually my meetings with her grew less, as I was getting better. Anxiety had subsided.
Sadly April last year the anxiety and panic attacks reared their head again. This triggered my IBS, and the anxiety and panics spiralled out of control. Aug last year was the last straw. I believe, looking back now, I had a break down. The attacks were triggering my IBS, and I had constant diarrhoea and was totally convinced and worried I was dying. That weekend I lost half a stone. This was now having an impact on my daughter. She actually asked me to stop crying as I was upsetting her. My wake up call!! I, once again, needed help. I went to my GP, who carried out a load of test, prescribed me medication to help with the anxiety and IBS. Tests came back, I was the picture of health, so it was my mind.
Once again I sought the help of a PTSD therapist, wondering after all this time, was I suffering again. And sure enough I was. Nearly dying with the haemorrhage triggered a real fear that I and my family would die and I wouldn’t be able to prevent it. Along with this was the fact that I associated the sound of diarrhoea with the blood loss I had with the haemorrhage. We tackled these over a couple of session, and so far so good.
I still wake up in the middle of the night with anxiety attacks, but have learnt to work with them and breathe and they seem to have weakened and don’t last as long.
The reason I started my blog is because the one piece of my advice my consultant gave me was to speak to someone who has gone through IVF, because you really do not know what it is like unless you have been there.
I want to show people it is possible, but it’s tough. I want to be able to support people and provide advice, from my personal experience, and to break down the still existing taboo of needing help to conceive. If I can help just one person, I will have accomplished what I set out to do. If I help more, I would be ecstatic!
My blog can be found here.
I am also on Instagram
Both of these are still fairly knew, and I am finding my way. I am looking to get involved with fertility support groups too. I have also more recently started writing poetry.
Below is a pic of me and my gorgeous girl, worth all the highs and lows. My world.
Many thanks for allowing me to share this with you and for taking the time to read it.
Amanda
Carla is the founder of MyBump2Baby. Carla has a huge passion for linking together small businesses and growing families. Carla’s humorous, non-filtered honesty has won the hearts of thousands of parents throughout the UK.
She has previously written for the Metro and made appearances on BBC News, BBC 5 live, LBC etc. Carla is a finalist for Blogger of the Year award with Simply Ladies inc. Carla is also the host of the popular Fifty Shades of Motherhood podcast and The MyBump2Baby Expert podcast.
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